And Then I Hung My Head and Cried

Today Aidan started first grade.

I feel like I could end it at that sentence and all moms out there will know what I am feeling right now.

I have had the privilege of being a full-time mom to Aidan. We have hardly been separated - he only went to nursery school for four hours a week when he was 4 and half-day kindergarten last year. So this separation is very hard.

I knew I would dread this day after I first met him. All summer, I have had September 1st nagging at me. But lucky me, Aidan snuggled into bed with us this morning and told me he wanted to snuggle with me a little longer today because he was going to go to school full-day and was going to miss me. Even luckier, I don't think he will. He has so much to look forward to and I know he'll have a blast. But he said the right thing and as I held him closer, I knew he would be ok.

I'll be ok, too. I've spent quite a bit of time planning what I'm going to do during the school hours. My business will start back up again and I can't wait to start sewing on a regular basis. I can garden. I had to quit the gym temporarily but I can work out from home. But to do all these things without Aidan's sweet voice in the background breaks my heart.

Comments

[Junie Moon]

Bless your heart, this is such a bittersweet time. The beginning of the school year always broke my heart with my children, but I was also proud of the little people they were becoming. It's so hard to hold on to their babyhood and simultaneously let them fly away like little butterflies. My heart goes out to you.

[Melissa]

Oh, Sadie, I know just how you feel! I hope you made it through the day alright! Love you and my little nephew!

[mom]

understood!