I feel like I could end it at that sentence and all moms out there will know what I am feeling right now.
I have had the privilege of being a full-time mom to Aidan. We have hardly been separated - he only went to nursery school for four hours a week when he was 4 and half-day kindergarten last year. So this separation is very hard.
I knew I would dread this day after I first met him. All summer, I have had September 1st nagging at me. But lucky me, Aidan snuggled into bed with us this morning and told me he wanted to snuggle with me a little longer today because he was going to go to school full-day and was going to miss me. Even luckier, I don't think he will. He has so much to look forward to and I know he'll have a blast. But he said the right thing and as I held him closer, I knew he would be ok.
I'll be ok, too. I've spent quite a bit of time planning what I'm going to do during the school hours. My business will start back up again and I can't wait to start sewing on a regular basis. I can garden. I had to quit the gym temporarily but I can work out from home. But to do all these things without Aidan's sweet voice in the background breaks my heart.